For as long as I am inside a physical existence, I will always be afraid of dying.
Even though I know that death is not real.
It doesn’t make sense. I know.
You wonder how can I be afraid of something that I don’t believe exists.
But no matter how much I believe that we don’t die ‘the wanting to be alive’ for as long as possible doesn’t go away.
I don’t think it is meant to.
We have come here to feel the fear of death.
And to look up to the stars and wonder what does it all mean?
Where do we go from here?
And even though we have a lot of the answers we will never really know with certainty which answer is the right one.
When the very popular song from the band Queen says “who wants to live forever?”
I always respond to it with “me, I do. I want to live forever.”
The good news is that a lot of scientists, engineers and tech billionaires want the same thing.
Because you guessed it. They are afraid to die.
And that fear drives evolution.
This is why the fear is here.
“The first person to live to be 1,000 years old is certainly alive today …whether they realize it or not, most people now 40 years or younger can expect to live for centuries,” claims Cambridge University geneticist Aubrey de Grey. “I think we’re in striking distance of keeping people so healthy that at 90 they’ll carry on waking up in the same physical state as they were at the age of 30, and their probability of not waking up one morning will be no higher than it was at the age of 30.”
I imagine being 90 or 100 and feeling like I do today at 45.
Maybe I don’t quite want to live forever but I don’t want to die in my 80s. I want to go beyond that.
Maybe make it to 200 years old. And maybe then I would be ready to let go of this physical existence and find my way to the other side of all of this which I deeply know is magnificent.
However, something tells me that when I get to be 200 I will want to know how it is to be 300 and even 1000 years old.
There is a fiction book called The City and The Stars written by Arthur C Clarke.
It is set on Earth a billion years into the future.
And everything is provided to the citizens of the city.
A central computer guides them as well as provides for everyone.
Every human has the choice to come back to the memory banks of the computer and resurrect themselves. They can live again with all the memories of their existence.
And even though this book is fiction there are organizations in existence today that are working really hard to make something like this real.
These companies believe in a world of abundance and wisdom and this is what drives them to discover technologies, biology and science that can allow us to live almost forever.
Most billionaires in the tech industry are spending their money and resources in finding the cure for death.
Yes, they are.
“Peter Thiel, the billionaire co-founder of PayPal, plans to live to be 120.
Compared with some other tech billionaires, he doesn’t seem particularly ambitious. Dmitry Itskov, the “godfather” of the Russian Internet, says his goal is to live to 10,000; Larry Ellison, co-founder of Oracle, finds the notion of accepting mortality “incomprehensible,” and Sergey Brin, co-founder of Google, hopes to someday “cure death.”
Why am I writing this Star Letter about immortality today?
Because I wish to have the cure for all the diseases that have taken our loved ones.
I wish to have wisdom that can only be acquired with having lived a long life.
And a more selfish reason.
Now that I am finally finding myself in my 40s I have so many things I want to do before I die.
And I want to do them here in this life, well that’s what my ego tells me anyways.
The ego keeps this reality significant and allows for the fear to be real.
So we can advance, evolve.
So we can have the free will to live for as long as we want to.
For me, this type of conversation is very emotional.
But when my ego falls asleep and I take a journey into my consciousness through meditation I am reminded that I am already immortal and I have already lived many lives.
When I remember my own timeless experience buried under the illusion of this reality I have a deep feeling of bliss.
Then death for just that moment is never a part of me but a part of this life I am living now.
“That moment when my heart stops, almost as if, it never existed..
When every breath, slows down, almost as if, I never needed a single breath of air..
When time stops, almost as if, seconds never mattered..
In that moment, I am infinite..
In that moment, I am immortal..
In that moment, I am, finally, alive..” ― Hafsa Shah
Christina Rasmussen is the creator and founder of The Life Reentry Institute, Second Firsts, The Life Starters and Star Letters. Christina is on a crusade to help millions of people rebuild, reclaim, and relaunch their lives using the power of their own minds. Christina’s work has been featured on ABC News, NPR, The White House Blog, and MariaShriver.com. She is the bestselling author of Second Firsts: Live, Laugh, and Love Again, which has also been translated in Chinese and German and is currently working on her second book on expanding the mind in ways that allows co creation with the forces of the universe. She is also writing her first work of fiction: a science fiction story about a woman on a quest to start over and begin a new life.